Saturday, December 27, 2025

Essays in the Art of Writing by Robert Louis Stevenson

Keen to read more from him given my enjoyment of the 'Travels with a Donkey..', I downloaded this inviting book.

Yet to read through, but first reading the essay, "The Books which have influenced me". This essay inspires one to read better, read well. The influence is good and much welcome as the time for new year resolutions approaches. So far the way it has worked on me, I have filled up ibooks with lots of Shakespeare, Whitman, and some old classics. Hope to read a lot from these over the coming year. 

Some excerpts:


The most influential books, and the truest in their influence, are works of fiction.  They do not pin the reader to a dogma, which he must afterwards discover to be inexact; they do not teach him a lesson, which he must afterwards unlearn.  They repeat, they rearrange, they clarify the lessons of life; they disengage us from ourselves, they constrain us to the acquaintance of others; and they show us the web of experience, not as we can see it for ourselves, but with a singular change—that monstrous, consuming ego of ours being, for the nonce, struck out.  To be so, they must be reasonably true to the human comedy; and any work that is so serves the turn of instruction.  But the course of our education is answered best by those poems and romances where we breathe a magnanimous atmosphere of thought and meet generous and pious characters.


A book which has been very influential upon me fell early into my hands, and so may stand first, though I think its influence was only sensible later on, and perhaps still keeps growing, for it is a book not easily outlived: the Essais of Montaigne.

But of works of art little can be said; their influence is profound and silent, like the influence of nature; they mould by contact; we drink them up like water, and are bettered, yet know not how. 

that this old gentleman was in a dozen ways a finer fellow, and held in a dozen ways a nobler view of life, than they or their contemporaries.



come next to Whitman’s Leaves of Grass, a book of singular service, a book which tumbled the world upside down for me, blew into space a thousand cobwebs of genteel and ethical illusion, and, having thus shaken my tabernacle of lies, set me back again upon a strong foundation of all the original and manly virtues.  But it is, once more, only a book for those who have the gift of reading.  I will be very frank—I believe it is so with all good books except, perhaps, fiction.


Close upon the back of my discovery of Whitman, I came under the influence of Herbert Spencer. 


Goethe’s Life, by Lewes. 

Biography, usually so false to its office, does here for once perform for us some of the work of fiction, reminding us, that is, of the truly mingled tissue of man’s nature, and how huge faults and shining virtues cohabit and persevere in the same character. 


This brings us by a natural transition to a very noble book—the Meditations of Marcus Aurelius.  The dispassionate gravity, the noble forgetfulness of self, the tenderness of others, that are there expressed and were practised on so great a scale in the life of its writer, make this book a book quite by itself. 


Such are the best teachers; a dogma learned is only a new error—the old one was perhaps as good; but a spirit communicated is a perpetual possession.  These best teachers climb beyond teaching to the plane of art; it is themselves, and what is best in themselves, that they communicate.



Friday, December 26, 2025

Travels With a Donkey in the Cevennes by Robert Louis Stevenson

A charming, delightful read. Picked it up in one of the book reccos somewhere and then found it at a second-hand book sale. Opened it yesterday. Just a third in so far. But love the country that comes alive with his writing. If one were to learn to write how to make scenery come alive, perhaps one can begin by copying some of his sentences.

I haven't read anything else from him. Except perhaps abridged versions of Treasure Island and Kidnapped ages ago. After reading this though, keen to pick up more from him. Or at least read the full versions of these novels.


"Why any one should desire to visit either Luc or Cheylard is more than my much-inventing spirit can suppose. For my part, I travel not to go anywhere, but to go. I travel for travel's sake. The great affair is to move; to feel the needs and hitches of our life more nearly; to come down off this feather-bed of civilisation, and find the globe granite underfoot and strewn with cutting flints. Alas, as we get up in life, and are more preoccupied with our affairs, even a holiday is a thing that must be worked for. To hold a pack upon a pack-saddle against a gale out of freezing north is no high industry, but it is one that serves to occupy and compose the mind. And when the present is so exacting, who can annoy himself about the future?"


A description of a Trappist monastery which he visits:

"He showed me his own room, where he passed his time among breviaries, Hebrew Bibles, and the Waverley Novels.  Thence he led me to the cloisters, into the chapter-house, through the vestry, where the brothers’ gowns and broad straw hats were hanging up, each with his religious name upon a board—names full of legendary suavity and interest, such as Basil, Hilarion, Raphael, or Pacifique; into the library, where were all the works of Veuillot and Chateaubriand, and the Odes et Ballades, if you please, and even Molière, to say nothing of innumerable fathers and a great variety of local and general historians.  Thence my good Irishman took me round the workshops, where brothers bake bread, and make cartwheels, and take photographs; where one superintends a collection of curiosities, and another a gallery of rabbits.  For in a Trappist monastery each monk has an occupation of his own choice, apart from his religious duties and the general labours of the house.  Each must sing in the choir, if he has a voice and ear, and join in the haymaking if he has a hand to stir; but in his private hours, although he must be occupied, he may be occupied on what he likes.  Thus I was told that one brother was engaged with literature; while Father Apollinaris busies himself in making roads, and the Abbot employs himself in binding books."


"The monks, by special grace of their Abbot, were still taking two meals a day; but it was already time for their grand fast, which begins somewhere in September and lasts till Easter, and during which they eat but once in the twenty-four hours, and that at two in the afternoon, twelve hours after they have begun the toil and vigil of the day.  Their meals are scanty, but even of these they eat sparingly; and though each is allowed a small carafe of wine, many refrain from this indulgence.  Without doubt, the most of mankind grossly overeat themselves; our meals serve not only for support, but as a hearty and natural diversion from the labour of life.  Yet, though excess may be hurtful, I should have thought this Trappist regimen defective.  And I am astonished, as I look back, at the freshness of face and cheerfulness of manner of all whom I beheld.  A happier nor a healthier company I should scarce suppose that I have ever seen. "


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Later - Finished reading it in December itself. A lovely read. Although I do not follow the Camisards completely and the description around the same about the Catholic-Protestant issue, still, the book is worth a reread for Stevenson's language and thoughts interspersed throughout. 

Have downloaded a few of his essays and other travel writings too to stay close to the voice.




Tuesday, December 23, 2025

Aspirations for the new year

Some ideas/projects/ aspirations/ challenges
  • To read Chekhov complete stories
  • A Dickens
  • A Dostoevsky (not keen on C&P, but who knows, maybe. There's Demons. Or if nothing else, can re-read the Idiot. Quite liked it.)
  • To read Nehru's Glimpses of World History (a long time aspiration). And for motivation, read this blog.
  • Ulysses before June 16th so that can reread some bits that day. (Big goal this one! I picked it up this year on June 16th, but the bookmark is still somewhere less than a third)
  • A Woolf - Either read To The Lighthouse or read the Waves. 
  • 3 Shakespeare plays (rereads ok)
  • Milton's Paradise Lost. Read slowly again
  • And a real challenge is to read all essays by Orwell. At least fifty found here. Not sure how this goes, but at least putting it down here.
General notes:
  • To keep a similar pace as this year's
  • To keep reading wide - lots of countries, lots of translation
  • Poet prose reads - something every now and then.
    • Malte Briggs.
    • Redress of Poetry or Finders Keepers
  • Poem readings, and noting down. Often.


Later, when I had sat with the above for a while. I realise I prefer to keep it simple. Hence:
  • Read a lot. Whenever you can. 
  • Read slowly.  :)

Anton Chekhov - The Collected Stories

A collection available here.

During the coming year, I wish to read all of Chekhov's stories available on Project Gutenberg. I have read him in different collections, some famous ones, some not so famous ones over years and decades. But this desire now to read all the stories that are available easily - from the beginning of the above collection. 

For me, reading short stories takes time. One can only read so much in a day. It is like a cup of coffee. One opens up a story, gets involved with it, and after reading it, keeps thinking about it for a while. One can only have so many cups of coffee in a day. In another analogy I often think of a book of short stories as an artist's gallery of sketches while a novel as a single painting. Even though the number of pages may be the same, it takes much longer to read a collection of short stories in terms of mindspace. 

Excited about this new project for the coming year. Plan to drop in notes here and there whenever a story makes an impression. 

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At the moment, it is the second story, Ward No. 6. Much written about and often referred to, this story is about the mental patients ward, and their doctor and how in the way humanity works in a group, some truths which are not objective are never discovered, but rather voted or afeared. The problems of drawing attention, the closing circles where any argument either way draws the circle tighter and tighter around the self. 

But most of all that life is such a gradient. The way we live makes life look static, 1 and 0, while so much of life, nature and reality operates on gradient. Just that our flight/fight mind finds it simpler to operate while regarding the world as rigid static, while the world is anything but. Reality floats, flows, changes, while we operate as if the world stays the same forever. So goes for the sane and insane in the story... makes you wonder. 

Reminds me of the Bell Jar, and Plath's heroine's grappling of sanity and insanity. This narrow band of normalcy for the social human on one end, while on the other end is the changing, shifting human, which as long as it doesn't draw attention to its not-normal moments can be regarded as sane and normal. It is the bigger question of human way of being, while the reality resides in the zones of becoming, ever-changing, ever-fluid.


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A Long Petal of the Sea by Isabel Allende

Not my usual pick or read. I got into this book at my pen-pal's recco, and glad that I picked it up. Its been a while that I had regular correspondence with my pen friend, but on one of the reconnecting mails, this recco showed up as one of her recent reads. 

It charts its course from Spain before world war, but during its own civil war, the impact of one family, refugees out of Spain, settling into Chile, building their lives there, and then facing Chile's own dicator crisis. Although it is a novel, it draws from real life and facts and one of the historical characters is Pablo Neruda. Through the life story of Dalmau family, it gives a close account of how life, world and reality were affected by the civil war in Spain (perhaps now I can read Orwell's essay on Spain and find my bearings better), and then just how refuge to another country works, how the people rebuild their lives, and then like any other life, the ups and downs, joys and sorrows, a life well lived even though lived through tumultous times and places. 

A Long Petal of the Sea, is another name for Chile, drawn from one of Neruda's poems. 

Interesting way to approach history. It is much more contextual now to read history of both Chile and Spain during those times which the book depicts, and make sense of it, then to read it without any reference point. That is one of the upshots of reading from different times and places, one has a character reference living during those times, and one sees the world, and the history with their context.

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Another thought - was about those professions of teaching and doctors. Not often in my life have I wondered about alternate paths. Once before while reading Che Guevara's motorcycle diaries and his youthful energy, and then again in this book, looking at Victor Dalmau, is the only time I have thought about life as a doctor. These books from South America!

Doctors and teachers - and all the related professions supporting them. These seem to have no need to retire but perhaps get better with experience. There must be other such professions as well...

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Keen to look up more from Allende by and by. She has been writing for the last 40-45 years. I guess I enjoyed the historical context fiction - will look up more such books from her. The other such books I read this year were The Dictionary of Lost Words and Bookbinder from Jericho. Both new books but set a century ago in a different world, both drawing from some reality and hence providing an interesting vantage point for world and local history of that period.

Oh What a Paradise it Seems by John Cheever

A novella.

Long time ago I read his Collected Stories, and for a while decided not to read more from him. His writing is beautiful but the modern life, the suburbia, the lost feeling of emptiness that it generates, the stories bother you more than provide you solace. I guess that is one way of looking at a reading journey - whether the book or the reading provokes you, agitates you, troubles you or somehow provides solace, or lifts you up. Most great books lift you up - even while dealing with life's miseries, they somehow in the way great art or literature can do, still manage to elevate you, lift you up, provide you some sort of quiet peace, a tranquility in life in whichever shape or form it meets you.

One can also say that in a reading encounter, there's as much of a reader in a book while reading it as there's the writer. Or perhaps not as much, but a lot of the reader's personal landscape finds its way in the reading journey. And hence, somehow books of a different time and place which do not find obvious counterparts in a reader's particularity perhaps provide richer encounters, and hence perhaps too, most great books need that testing by time, a remove from the reader's day and age.

Back to this novella. Here again, like Cheever's other stories, the same desolation at times. The lost purity of life before suburbia, the consuming classes, the burgeoning comforts of Western lifestyle and the commercial aspects of life which encroach on, or dull the purity and simplicity of life. Along with the commercial consumption aspects of modern life, there is detritus and flotsam of  past relationships too in his modern American or America of second-half/ late twentieth century. There is a lot of clutter of modern life - both in things and consumption, and the similar mindset in ways of being with people. It leaves people empty, devoid of some simplicity, lost in the clutter. 

What is the way out? One has to think here, that again, because it is simplicity that we are talking about, it can be found almost anywhere, but needs a cleansing of mind, a resetting of expectations from life and reality. 


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A short quick read. The book connects well with Amitav Ghosh's The Great Derangement. What he mentions that there is little fiction talking about what we are doing to the planet. This one is a short novel about consumerism and what we are doing to the planet, and ourselves. 

Sunday, December 21, 2025

Every Day I Read by Hwang Bo-Reum

I came across the author when a friend gifted me the Hyunam Dong Bookshop. I enjoyed the simple read, and had a list of books from that one to look up or to add to reading list. 

Bought this one on a trip away. Quick read. But a really sweet read. Very accessible and friendly. Opens up reading ideas, suggestions and inspires in a very simple way. Now have a list of books and authors to look up. And excited to take up reading goals for the new year. 

The author reads around 12 books a month! For me, 2025 was one of my best reading years and I averaged somewhere at 6 a month, or perhaps a little less. But happy about that. And glad that I bought this book. Hope to dip in it again here and there when wish to up the tempo on reading intensity.


Friday, December 12, 2025

The Great Derangement - Amitav Ghosh



This is the first time I’m reading him, and really loving his writing. Keen to read more from him. Erudite and literary, in a good way. Makes you slow down while reading the prose, and I am tempted to re-read certain sections, if not the whole book. The book is about Climate and the way perhaps future generations will call this age the greatly deranged age – these 300 years of industrialisation, exploitation of earth’s resources, and our persistent blind eye to what is happening to the world.

Personally, I don’t know how one breaks the tide of the way humanity has chosen progress and materialism and capitalism and the race to resources – without really building in the right price of things. Only the cost of extraction is referred to, and the cost of replacement is completely ignored. Earth regenerates, and both air and water can be regenerated if we would only help the process and actually allow the cost to be built in to the cost of things. The right price will perhaps slowly nudge us into the right habits.

Air and water being the most basic, and the only renewable resources we have - as to the rest of the extraction of earth, unless we change our value matrix, our way of living, or use our brains to develop the world on a more sustainable, long-term basis, ....what Gass says, about the human appetite, a universe is on fire...but because it is not felt acutely immediate, the brain relegates the fire as invisible...

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I have just about begun reading the book. Keen to read this one and more from him. And perhaps find a better way to talk about this book to more people. Some of these things are as much about real awareness, mindshare, thoughtshare of more and more people - both young and old. The world turns itself over fairly quickly in the timescale of history, but the impact of these few scores of generations of human beings will be felt for a while

One can only move forward from where one is, and the best way is to work with the value matrix I feel.

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Note to self - to read it well, and to write about the book.

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There are two things regarding the problem of cities close to water, the problem of climate change created by humanity, and all the related problems. Changes take generations. The first thing is about awareness, understanding and appreciation. The second thing is about using this as a checklist of problems with current world arrangements, and to fix what can be fixed or bolstered. For instance, he talks about Nuclear Power plants close to sea which are now prone to cyclones because of climate change. If efforts in science can be directed towards creating innovation and tech to deal with Nucelar Plants in case of power loss. ....What I mean is that this book is not just for awareness, but also as a reckoner of things to be fixed, the worst problems to be dealt with, the efforts to be directed...to maximise the saving of humanity, both from impact as well as cause... and saving of the environment.

One can hence also read this book as a sort of checklist. To consider all the issues he details, story by story, something as a task list.




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There are cycles in the world, of which the clock is a miniature way to look at, seconds, minutes, hours, each circling at a different pace. But in nature, umpteen cycles keep moving. Nothing is still, everything is slowly or rapidly churning. Some of these are discernible to us like seconds and minutes and some of these are in rhythm with our being like hours, days, months and years. But many of these, because they are beyond our easy discernment, sometimes are not really grasped, understood, or their magnitude and impact appreciated. One gets a feeling reading this book that so much of the world is beyond our time-sense-grasp, that where one should listen to or bow to the wisdom of ages, just because one cannot discern or see so far. So either the wisdom of the ages, or the general reverence of the ancient man to what he didn’t understand rather than the general unabashed-ness of the modern man in front of what he doesn’t understand, or a general obliviousness, ignorance, a complete disconnect or ignoring of what is not understood. The thing about unknown unknowns but there are known unknowns too. However, the pace of life, the practicality of living and at a level, it is some sort of FOMO that drives the human race so competitively, capitalistically forward.




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There's his approach to the issue, a question he wonders about why is climate change not much spoken about in fiction, and to answer that he delves into the form of narrative and novel which has evolved over time, and the seeming improbability of certain events make them difficult to approach in fiction which deals with 'life as usual', the modern day life. (Some excerpts below)




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Some excerpts:

The humans of the future will surely understand, knowing what they presumably will know about the history of their forebears on earth, that only in one, very brief era, lasting less than three centuries, did a significant number of their kind believe that planets and asteroids are inert.

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Recognition is famously a passage from ignorance to knowledge. To recognize, then, is not the same as an initial introduction. Nor does recognition require an exchange of words: more often than not we recognize mutely. And to recognize is by no means to understand that which meets the eye; comprehension need play no part in a moment of recognition. The most important element of the word recognition thus lies in its first syllable, which harks back to something prior, an already existing awareness that makes possible the passage from ignorance to knowledge: a moment of recognition occurs when a prior awareness flashes before us, effecting an instant change in our understanding of that which is beheld. Yet this flash cannot appear spontaneously; it cannot disclose itself except in the presence of its lost other. The knowledge that results from recognition, then, is not of the same kind as the discovery of something new: it arises rather from a renewed reckoning with a potentiality that lies within oneself.


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But, of course, air too can come to life with sudden and deadly violence.

But more often it does so with a quiet insistence—as the inhabitants of New Delhi and Beijing know all too well—when inflamed lungs and sinuses prove once again that there is no difference between the without and the within; between using and being used. These too are moments of recognition, in which it dawns on us that the energy that surrounds us, flowing under our feet and through wires in our walls, animating our vehicles and illuminating our rooms, is an all-encompassing presence that may have its own purposes about which we know nothing.

It was in this way that I too became aware of the urgent proximity of non-human presences, through instances of recognition that were forced upon me by my surroundings.



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But when it came to translating these perceptions into the medium of my imaginative life—into fiction, that is—I found myself confronting challenges of a wholly different order from those that I had dealt with in my earlier work. Back then, those challenges seemed to be particular to the book I was writing, The Hungry Tide; but now, many years later, at a moment when the accelerating impacts of global warming have begun to threaten the very existence of low-lying areas like the Sundarbans, it seems to me that those problems have far wider implications. I have come to recognize that the challenges that climate change poses for the contemporary writer, although specific in some respects, are also products of something broader and older;


that they derive ultimately from the grid of literary forms and conventions that came to shape the narrative imagination in precisely that period when the accumulation of carbon in the atmosphere was rewriting the destiny of the earth.


That climate change casts a much smaller shadow within the landscape of literary fiction than it does even in the public arena is not hard to establish.

Indeed, it could even be said that fiction that deals with climate change is almost by definition not of the kind that is taken seriously by serious literary journals: the mere mention of the subject is often enough to relegate a novel or a short story to the genre of science fiction. It is as though in the literary imagination climate change were somehow akin to extraterrestrials or interplanetary travel.


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But the truth, as is now widely acknowledged, is that we have entered a time when the wild has become the norm: if certain literary forms are unable to negotiate these torrents, then they will have failed—and their failures will have to be counted as an aspect of the broader imaginative and cultural failure that lies at the heart of the climate crisis.



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Clearly the problem does not arise out of a lack of information: there are surely very few writers today who are oblivious to the current disturbances in climate systems the world over. Yet, it is a striking fact that when novelists do choose to write about climate change it is almost always outside of fiction.


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In his seminal essay ‘The Climate of History’, Dipesh Chakrabarty observes that historians will have to revise many of their fundamental assumptions and procedures in this era of human-induced climate change, in which ‘humans have become geological agents, changing the most basic physical processes of the earth’. I would go further and add that the Anthropocene presents a challenge not only to the arts and humanities, but also to our common-sense understandings and beyond that to contemporary culture in general.


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Culture generates desires—for vehicles and appliances, for certain kinds of gardens and dwellings—that are among the principal drivers of the carbon economy.

When we see an advertisement that links a picture of a tropical island to the word paradise, the longings that are kindled in us have a chain of transmission that stretches back to Daniel Defoe and Jean-Jacques Rousseau: the flight that will transport us to the island is merely an ember in that fire. When we see a green lawn that has been watered with desalinated water in Abu Dhabi or Southern California or some other environment where people had once been content to spend their water thriftily in nurturing a single vine or shrub, we are looking at an expression of a yearning that may have been midwifed by the novels of Jane Austen. The artefacts and commodities that are conjured up by these desires are, in a sense, at once expressions and concealments of the cultural matrix that brought them into being.


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This culture is, of course, intimately linked with the wider histories of imperialism and capitalism that have shaped the world. But to know this is still to know very little about the specific ways in which the matrix interacts with different modes of cultural activity: poetry, art, architecture, theatre, prose fiction, and so on. Throughout history these branches of culture have responded to war, ecological calamity and crises of many sorts: why, then, should climate change prove so peculiarly resistant to their practices?


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In a substantially altered world, when sea-level rise has swallowed the Sundarbans and made cities like Kolkata, New York and Bangkok uninhabitable, when readers and museumgoers turn to the art and literature of our time, will they not look, first, and most urgently, for traces and portents of the altered world of their inheritance? And when they fail to find them, what should they—what can they—do other than to conclude that ours was a time when most forms of art and literature were drawn into the modes of concealment that prevented people from recognizing the realities of their plight? Quite possibly then, this era, which so congratulates itself on its self-awareness, will come to be known as the time of the Great Derangement.







All Excerpts From Ghosh, Amitav. “The Great Derangement: Climate Change and the Unthinkable.” 

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Later - This book is a long essay. Even as I read it, I go through earlier sections. Like a report or a text book, it needs more time than a fast read. And any time spent on it is enriching in terms of understanding, appreciation and a worldview or a way of seeing fiction and the world in light of our deranged age.

Thirteen Ways of Looking - Colum McCann

Not my usual fare. But a quick read of short stories/ novella. Oft spotted in a second-hand book sale, finally bought yesterday. A fast read. Sometimes, what you need.

Intrigued by the title which is borrowed from Wallace Stevens poem, Thirteen ways of looking at a backbird. Reads like a show at times. One can almost imagine a teleseries of the name. 

Another one that writes grippingly is Tobias Wolff, one of my other dips.


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Later - I finished the novella. But the rest of the stories, I just couldn't go through the final one. So this book doesn't make it to the annual list as finished.



Wednesday, December 10, 2025

Blogs on reading and writing

One of the most delightful things is to explore other people's thoughts on the books they like and on reading itself. And about writing and reading, and reading and writing. This has been one of the pleasures and one of the most awesome gifts of the internet. 

If I look back at myself, I, an early eighties kid, came across internet in my early teens. And from that time, when people used to create cyan-background websites, to this time, books and their blogs and their pages, and the general fan-stuff about reading has been one of the most most most amazing things about internet. Very few interests connect people this way across centuries, across time and space as shared ideas. 

Somehow thoughts about books elevate the discussion. It needs to be from somewhere deep in the person, but amazingly, it somehow is not personal that way. One of the most paradoxical things - a thought so innermost yet being able to be shared without the sticky personal aspects. And hence, one feels one knows people but one may not know the facts of their life. 

I come across many many book blogs and each one is a joy. I came across a blog a few years ago which was one of the most amazing finds on books. But it went missing...Anyhow, this note of thanks to the missing blog. Hope it exists in some form. And to many other blogs that I would have come across, saved, forgotten over time...and often pleasently returned to. 

As to my own blogs, these are mostly notes to self. I have been doing so in some form or fashion since early 2000s. I enjoy reading them after some time, and if they are about a book, they are a mirror of my thoughts at the period. This current blog is my latest on books. Here, I can be freer (and quicker) turning out random unedited notes. The important thing being noting down the joy - of all the books I am currently exploring and planning to read or reading. 

Readers/audience are appreciated :) Cheers to reading and book-blogging!



Saturday, December 6, 2025

Soul Mountain by Gao Xingjian



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There is a loneliness in being human. One is so much a social being, yet at the end of the day, one is very much alone in oneself. This loneliness also transcends to this cosmic loneliness, on this seeming scene of the universe and lone humanity. It is not about physical loneliness, it is the wavelength loneliness at times. You seem to traverse a wavelength and hope to find another soul on that wavelength. Sometimes one finds it in books, in authors, in long past writers. In that way, books are a beautiful tech to meet people on your own wavelength. 

This loneliness is not pressing. There's plenty of company and fellow feeling and shared joys and shared lives. It is about a deeper question to the universe, it is about the hungry wonder of being, the unknowables surrounding us, and in this macrocosm, a little microcosm of us, playing along, living our lives, living our days on this Earth. 

Perhaps it is a mood that envelops one. Perhaps it is the keenness to express something in words, perhaps it is about personal aspiration to be able to express well what is really on mind. 

The only solace is it all passes. The flow of life keeps moving forward. So sometimes even if you are stuck at some aspect of life, life kindly carries you forward. Between the self command of 'keep moving forward', and the nature of things that they pass, one keeps walking on virgin sands of time. New footsteps which soon get washed over. There's nothing to hold on to, nothing to show except in oneself, in one's becoming and being. And that too passes. It matters not at the end of the day however burning those questions and wonders may be. Time and life dull every sharp edge, everything gets blunted like smooth river stones in this churning river of time. 

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Little to do with the book. More to do with the idea of books and being able to sometimes either find other souls on the same wavelength as yours, or sometimes being gently led on the writer's prose to a completely new wavelength. 

There are certain writings that are meditative. One can unfold oneself on those sentences and glide along wherever the author takes you. Sometimes these might be about the most inconsequential of things, but a personal, perhaps an individual's personal and vulnerable take on things. Not seeming as such, but as such. I have been reading Agua Viva by Clarice Lispector. I got nudged along to Soul Mountain by Gao Xingjian. And I think of Pessoa. I think of Knausgaard. I think of meditative long sentences. Even Proust and to an extent Murnane on reading and writing. For that matter, unedited prose of many writers when they talk about reading and writing. There's a sort of quiet meditative movement to the prose, which calms you down, soothes you like a baby on bottle. Not the prettiest of analogies, but words folded in a particular way can have as calming a power - in the same instance folding you warmly in the general you and I, and in the same instance letting you stand alone as a very unique I, forgetting and not forgetting, murmuring sweet nothings, almost inconsequntial things, just some words, connecting you warmly to life. 

The simple idea is reading and writing and perhaps meditative prose. Soul Mountain (still very early pages) seems like one. Perhaps there are certain moods where the mind feeds on the description of simple everyday life but at a removed context so the everyday world is itself an enchanted world. For such moods. Or perhaps it is the tranquil world view of the writer that affects us. It must be something like that, where between the lines, something of the writer's spirit, his worldview, gets transmitted to the reader. And although what one reads about maybe relatively simple, the words have done their work as a net for the spirit, for the world-view of the writer to be transmitted to you. Perhaps it is that, that we enjoy in such meditative prose. 

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I have different reading moods. For all moods, secure, not so secure, Eastern wisdom. There's a stillness, enough-ness, a sort of simple joy in simple being without any major clamor or want or need or have not or some sort of perpetual competition that the Western world view has at times. I think of Soul Mountain. Clouds on the hill. Basho and his travels. I have read little that way, but I think Europe too finds its tranquility but mostly somehow there's melancholy and it leans towards the absurdity of life,a heaviness. But somehow when one regards life in the Eastern way which is generally about the whole, reading the Western works is like going down a level where one still grapples with parts. Just sometimes.

Even that understanding of the whole is lived, not expressed. One sees a glimmer of it in Eastern simplicity and thoughts, but like chimera it escapes in the Westernization of our lives. Still, there's hope. Hopefully at least to keep arriving at new meditative ways of understanding the world, and yet another way of seeing it.